The pic above is from a favorite blog "Lupus, Humor, and Wellness Think Outside the Prescription Bottle." It so shows the way I feel right now. I have lost 40 pounds, found out I have diabetes, brought it into normal range, brought my blood pressure down to 110/76, then today I find out that my Lupus has gotten worse AND the enzyme test for my liver is extrememly high. Now, I have to be tested for hepatitis, get an ultrasound of my liver and go see another rheumatologist. Sigh.
I got the news from my doctor over the phone an hour ago. Since then I have broken down in tears and been consoled by a dear young lady here at work. I have vented to a friend about my anger. I have then realized it could be worse, a lot worse. I have called my mom and son to casually mention it to them, so they don't freak out. Now, I'm just alone with it. I've run the whole gamut of emotions in an hour's time.
So, what now? I need some kind of action. I cannot sit with this info and do nothing. I cannot even think of of how to end my journal rant right now. That, at least, brings a smile, a smirky smile to me. Me, at a loss for words? Automimmune diseases are humbling, among other things. If you are a control-freak, forgettaboutit! Everything is out of your control. Even though I feel healthier and better than I have in a number of years, Lupus says, "Think that if you want, lady!"
Well, I have to go do Google searches and consult http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/liver-problems/DS01133 and such to scare myself silly before Monday.
Have a great Friday....treasure your health, your family and yourself! Positive posts promised next week!
Peace & Health!
